Yesterday was expected to be my last dose of chemo via an IV. However, after meeting with Herr Doktor, he has decided to add (1) more round next Friday. This is because I still have, including today, 12 more rounds of Radiation and he wants to continue with the IV until the completion of Radiation.

As of July 7 I should be done with both chemo and radiation. Then, a 6 weeks stay until surgery can be scheduled around the last week of August. This I am dreading like nothing else I have ever encountered in my life. It's not the actual surgery I'm concerned with. It's the coming to grips with the fact that I will be without, what I feel, is a critical part of my body - MY ARSE! for the remainder of my life. HEAVY HEAVY stuff.

So at this point I am just counting the days until I can get off these hard core treatments. Then I will have at least 6 weeks to deal with the life long effects of surgery.

I have informed my boss that starting next Monday I will need to take time off from work, until further notice. I tried but, at this point, my body simply refuses to cooperate. I wanted to continue working so as to keep as normal of a life as possible, not to mention the financial impact of having the sole provider of a family of six without an income! But this is where my body is at at the moment and I have to accept it and deal with it as best as possible.

I hope everyone has a great weekend. A very Happy Fathers Day Dad.....and to all the [worthy] Fathers out there!

With much love and thanks for your continued support and prayers for our family.

C